Eros and other forms of discontent Self-esteem came and went during the course of my divorce. One of the bazillion questions I had for myself was, “who would be interested in a 45-year-old mother of three”? The answer to that question came with a subscription to an online dating service. In the midst of my […]
Is that a gaslight in your pocket or are you just happy to keep me? When you live in the yellow tinge of a gaslight life becomes hazy and dull, you don’t realize how crisp the real world can be. Thinking back, I could now identify a pattern I couldn’t or wouldn’t look at too […]
My life had become a bad romantic comedy. You know what I mean; it’s the kind of chick flick where the middle-aged woman is left to pick up the pieces when her equally middle-aged husband tries to recapture his youth. If it were not so real and completely heartbreaking, I would buy tickets for this […]
Rainy Days and Mondays After the separation session, there were five awkward days of negotiating kids, work, meals, errands, and life in general before our Monday counseling appointment. First thing Monday morning I sent the hubs meeting notices for the remainder of the month’s counseling sessions, only receiving one “accept” for that morning’s meeting followed by […]
My nearly 15-year marriage has always been held together with bubble gum and bailing wire. He and I were traveling on different roads almost from the day we had children and it only became worse as our financial success grew. I am pulled to be the Mom I never had and he seems to […]
When I was a kid, it was all about vinyl. Every penny of my babysitting money was spent on records that I hoarded in my room and played as loudly as possible. The rhythms and words wove their way through my brain, giving me a sense of calm in knowing that life’s difficulties were […]